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| I just read through a few pages of posts of this thing. I have changed immensely since the beggining of high school til now. For one, I am not obsessed with boys as I appeared to be (I was pretty ridiculous). Second, my faith in and beliefs about God are so much stronger and real. Senior year taught me a lot about guys, as well as my first year at Harding. I guess it's fun to look back at the growth that's ensued through the years, but I know that I would never trade what I know and have now for who I was and did then.
reason2breathe.wordpress.com | | |
| As much as I hate to say it since I know it will be hard to do but I've decided to let God do his work in my life in the relationship area. I've read about and seen relationships go on and the end is always worse. Why would I really want that? I know that I do really want to have a guy who I can spend time with, be dumb with, and just cuddle with but then again I know I more than likely won't marry the guy so yah. Plus I look at all the single chicas out there and they don't seem to have that much problem with it so I'm sure that I will be ok. I know that I will be ok. 
God shall provide!
Yah so I'm really not a xanga freak anymore but I still thought I should at least post something. Love,
Kayla | | |
| Ok so i need anger management...I've gotta cut it out with this "stuff" i've been doing...I mean it helps make my anger go away but its not the best thing to do. counting to 10 isnt helpin. I think it's been worse since I've been away from church and Godly people.
ANYWAYS !!! Guesss wwaaaatt?!?
Last night I met this guy (AM) my buddy from work (Michael) has been talking about hooking me up with. It was really cool. I felt kinda flirty. He seems really down to earth. Mike told me he was really smart but didnt act like it (which is how i am), that he got like ALL the scholarships, that he plays soccer (ooo I love soccer boyzzz), n that hes a life guard...MAN is he TAN!!! Anyways I talked to him...I was kinda shy kinda not...the shy where i dont kno wat to say not the shy where I sit there with a blank stare. It was cool. I was hyper too so that helped. We played air hockey ( I know, I know...I was working but it was like when no one was there...basically...) and I won by like 5 or somethin...he did knock most of his in tho. Lol
He's so cool and he was like a cutesy shy too. It was really cool cuz he seems so nice and down to earth!! I'm excited to go on a date with him sometime. I think that I might call him today. (Stupid Josh n Mike gave me his pic n wrote some stuff about him knowing i said he was hott but they had wrote it plus it had his #) I have to wait a week and some days b4 i can prob see him again if i dont see him today so yahh...b-cuz of Bible Camp. But o wellzz....funny thing is if i fall for him he's off to college in like a month in a half or so...but still...we can hang out right?? [Why am i thinkin bout the future, already!? That's how I get hurt!]
Well I'm gonna go but not b4 i add some quotezzz
<3Kay kay Kaylaaaa
QUOTEZZ//
Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies.
~ Aristotle
Love one another and you will be happy. It's as simple and as difficult as that.
~ Michael Leunig
"Every relationship you have with another person reflects the relationship you have with yourself.
~-Evan Bailyn
If you love someone, tell them. For hearts are often broken by words left unspoken.
~Stephanie Roogle
"Once in a while, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale."
~Anonymous
"Some people come into our lives, leave footprints in our hearts, and we are never ever the same."
~Anonymous
"Love those who love you."
~Voltaire
"Love is being stupid together."
~Paul Valery
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| wow, i feel so void. like i was actually start to fall for this guy...or maybe i did, but I hurt myself on the trip down. This guy who I told I liked the day school go out wch was like 2weeks ago...we started talkin n textin and I guess flirtin and his friends would come in saying stupid immaturish stuff that hinted at him likin me. But I was stupid and KNEW that he liked this other girl too and at first I was gonna just let him try to figure her out and leave him alone but he led me on and people gave me the impression that I may have had a chance. You know how bad that feels to know that all your attention, affection, whatever has just come to a sudden halt. It's like no one cares for your feelings, they're trying to protect the guy. And people can't tell me they didn't know...they were all trying to hide him and her from me. It just made things worse..it just made me hurt worse. Knowing I can't have the one that I thought was totally awesome and sweet. But I guess there will always be more guys. It's like I can't help myself. I want to have some one to hold and cherish and what not. I feel so lonely but yet I see no person currently in my life that I can even start to like.
I guess I will continue being lonely and void for a while. I have no time to meet new people with my job. i'm working everying frieken day this week. No time for parties...no time for clubbin' (not like i would go to a club but it was just for the effect).
Anyways...I will continue to be that girl next door. the one that sees it all and says nothing...
Sincerely,
Lonely and Desolate | | |
| So yesterday was soooo fun...
I went to school, had an awards assembly, got like 4 awards, did my schedule for next year
Then I went to Whit's and walked with Jah around the park, then we went to the conservation lake and they almost got busted with somethin:-S It was scary and i was frieking out but then the game warden left. They got rid of the stuff and brought a cooler of sodas. Then the orginal 3 left cuz jah had to be home by 3. then i went to the movies wit alyse n nikki and we saw just my luck.then we raced out of there to go see the benefit concert with all the local bands that started at 6. All the people there were rocker lookin and hot! We felt a little out of place but it was still cool. Then we left to walmart at 8 and i had a headache for the next 2 hours. Nikki n Alyse left me and I went back to the theater to watch Poseidon and met up with Kayla and Emily who stayed with me to watch the movie. They left and I talked to two of the ppl I work with. I left with M and then went back and told a guy I had a crush on him then felt really awkward and left to go visit my mom at the nursing home since it was her bday. SO yah THAT was A busy DAY!!!! Like whoa! But it was sooooooo fun!!!!
Well Hope everyone has a great summer! And to ya'll that aren't out left try ur hardest in school til it's out. Don't give up!!!
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